This blog was started not just for my own personal growth but to also give a voice to those who sometimes feel lost or unheard. My message today is about having the courage to believe in yourself when life seems to close doors and when circumstances seem bleak. It is about setting goals for yourself, despite having negative people breathing failure into your spirit. I have lived much of my life searching for something, yet not really knowing what it truly is that I was seeking. I believe that it was designed in God's plan that way so that I would continue to have spiritual growth.
As a young girl, I was extremely lost. I had the love of a mother who would sacrifice anything for her children, yet she did not have all the answers in order to keep me in line. She tried very hard, but many times her efforts were in vain. As a teenager, I became a little rebellious and strong willed . I was seeking love in all the wrong places, and as a result, I became a teenage mother. Although I was an honor student, the need to be" grown ", along with the strong desire to be liberated and free, caused me to make foolish choices that impacted my life severely. I was told that I would not amount to anything, mainly because I had become pregnant at 16. Thinking back on it, I spent a large amount of my Junior year in high-school in complete isolation. Although I was not ashamed, others who I had considered my friends shunned me. I took it in stride and I certainly learned some of my most valuable lessons during that time. I could not blame many of them, as they were conditioned by the judgement and callous views of their parents and our community that I was nothing more than a disgrace to myself and other young girls around me, and that all association with me should be reconsidered in order to save their own reputations. I get it now, but during that time, my mind was still very immature and could not digest such calamity and cruel treatment.
I say this to remind myself of the journey that I underwent during that time. I thank God for my family and for the few close girlfriends that played a significant role in reminding me that I indeed was still relevant and that I had a calling. I learned the most from that then unborn child who has since grown into a handsome, caring and mature young man. I did not have all the answers, and as a teen mother I was extremely afraid of what my future had to hold. I chose to never waver in the faith I had for myself, despite the fact that my environment and circumstances gave me every reason to want to give up.
I did not listen to those haters and the demons that sometimes plagued my mind. I learned to focus and to look at the gift that God presented to me in my first born child. He motivated me, he gave me strength and courage when many times I just wanted to give up. When I looked into his big brown eyes, I was reminded that God makes no mistakes and that I indeed had been granted a most valuable gift.
I felt a need to place this entry to reach out to all the young women who have found themselves in uncompromising situations where they have seen no way out. I salute the single young mothers who fight endlessly to provide some level of normalcy in the lives of their children. I encourage you to never give up. I encourage you to focus on what is important. I will tell you that it will not be easy, but when you do your very best, the reward will be most significant. Remember to love yourself, because without that, your children will never have a fighting chance. YOU WILL MAKE MISTAKES! The important thing is that you do not live in that disappointment and don't allow it to fester or hinder you from accomplishing every single goal that you set for yourself. You are the controller of your own destiny. Remember to DREAM to have more and be more and know that THE BIGGEST ROOM SHOULD ALWAYS BE THE ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT! #trulytequilla